Ok.. time to be thought provoking lol just kiddin.. i feel like rambling.. so..

i wonder if guys are really the root of most relationship problems. Most girls i talk to get so upset at guys for giving so called "mixed signals" but maybe a mixed signal is infact not a signal at all. Maybe it's just being friendly or making a kind gesture. Sure, things get confusing every now and then, but i've learned to just refuse to put my heart on the line for a kind gesture. getting emotionally invovled anytime soon.. well.. i'd rather not because some guys can't be forward enough. and those who are usually are too forward to the point of being obnoxious or think they're just well.. "the shit".
i got a mixed signal today, which bothered me. but then i remembered to let everything go. I live by the theory of "he's just not that into you". if a guy likes an available girl, he'll go for it. if he doesnt, then, "he's just not that into you" and the wonderful thing about that theory is it can be applied to near everything (in some sort of variation) that doesnt work out. its neither the girl or the guy's fault (even though it's easiest to blame him) in a situation, but sometimes it's as simple as:

"he's just not that into you"

well.. i'm cool.. and im out.. <333

I breaked for long enough.. time for an update:

I'm sick at home on a friday night.. i got Skittles in my nose.. it's an awfully long story, but so now im sick and thats the sum of it. Tomorrow i have to run though and that will be a terrible time cause it'll be gross out and im sick! NO BIEN! School's ok. My hair has purple highlights. It's FuNkY  yeah so i can tell everyone envies my hair.. but it wont look as good on yall so dont even try haha jk.. i'm just bein cute
I'm pregnant.. no im just kidding haha but i know everyones jaw just dropped lol.. i've been havin a pretty bad week, but i know things will get better. I got in a fight with Steph about somethin lame (ps- i love you so much its offensive!) and i went to her house, then she never came home, so we still fought. Then she came to my house, and we drove around and talked. It's amazing knowing someone cares enough about me.. i haven't grasped that concept in a long time.
OH! i have like every with carly and it's fun as SHITTT lol and we love the lunch lady. She gives me extra food  thats ALWAYS a plus!
I dropped AP Psych.. {sorry michelle } it was too much for me right now. Which means a lot's at stake for my academic resource type thing for next semester. L for Lame huh?
I walked by and heard a voice talkin about me in the hall today. I got a good giggle. I felt kinda special knowing i was so important  you know.. everyone's wonderful that i know or have known, its just a matter of how much of that you allow to show.
Track = OLD and frusterating.. i <3 the people though
School Overall= fun, but i dont like the work
My mom= AmAzInG! if anyones my friend, you gotta love her too

I'm tired and need to sleeeeeep! lol arent i lame? lol well.. LoVE <333

Just a song i wrote, entitled: "Steph, I'm in love you with and miss you and i'm sorry your grounded" by Amanda Myers

my dearest steph, whats there to say?/ i miss you most everyday./ We used to play all the time/ then i got you grounded with your parents and they didnt tell mine./ so now i can play with kristina and emily/ we all miss you so much, very terribly./ i have nobody now to go to the pool with me/ to act like a fag and go skinny dipping./ i hope that you get ungrounded soon/ try to be charming and wash your forks and spoons./ do extra chores and kiss big time ass/ because i need you back in my life real fast!

i love you. the end.

last night was weird. i made friends. *happy brithday david* i love DJ Em, and DJ K-Ris.. they made me feel happy in my heart lol i got a random kiss.. lol always enjoyable. and now i have a yellow teddy bear on my dashboard.. go figure.. a frog peed on me, i played on a playground, flashed a mascott, discoved the similarites between aaron carter and emily, and got retaught how to play poker.. not bad overall..

summer '05.. i'll never forget you

Last night was SOOOO funnn omgosh.. me em and kris went to the football game very late.. then taco bell.. then nathans.. all the while singin and dancin to the people beside us and annoyin everyone.. and there was a christian school there and it was a boys golf team and we totally threw sauce packets at them.. and kristina fell and i flashed the minister on accident..  totally an accident though, lol i felt like an ass..  i was like "omgosh im SO sorry!" lol hmm what else? then we went to target and they didnt have spice girls, so then we went to walmart.. and these girls made fun of kristina.. oh man.. they were MAKE BELIEVE anyway.. lol they dont really exist.. lol it was crazy.. we saw walters and cindy and stuff so that was fun too.. car dancing kicks ass.. this has definately been the best summer ever.. i miss my stephy though! <3 im sorry girl.. you have my heart though.. <333 we're gonna sneak out on monday mornin and go to breakfast.. and we WILL ride together to school.. we just gotta get smarter lol..

anyway.. i'm tired from my workout this morning.. 1.5 mile warmup + 3 timed miles + 1.5 mile cool down = one tired girl! lol im so gonna go sleep now.. love yall